I really wish I had one big reason on why I am so sad all the time.
When people ask me why I’m so sad, or why I cut… I just don’t know what to say.
My parents are both still alive and together. I have a nice house, I ended up not moving. My family is not totally screwed. I have a decent amount of friends.
I should be fucking happy. Idk why I wake up everyday so miserable. The thoughts in my head just never go away. I can’t help it.
No one really understand until they go through it themselves.
I just keep pushing all my feelings down. And pretending that I’m okay. And putting on a smile so people don’t have to deal with my issues.
I hate myself so much. So I cut. And then I hate myself even more for doing that.
And it’s a never ending battle with myself.
I’m so tired of looking in the mirror with disgust and how it is so easy to tell someone that you’re ’fine”
you’re just “tired’