is to be liberated from the constant thought of you
both the mental and physical pain you have caused upon me
and what I did to deserve it all.
But you can’t hate someone for breaking your heart. It does absolutely no good. Only engenders bitterness and pain. And I dont think peoples intentions are ever to break someones heart. Only a fucking devious little cunt would want to make another s heart ache.
A person cant help what their feelings are. I’ll never really understand how you just go from loving someone so much one day, and then feel nothing the next.
But it happens. Feelings just change. Things change.
And acceptance is key in situations like these.
i feel so pathetic being so drunkk
and soooo horny
and just wanting to make out with my ex boyfrind so so so badly
So So sick of crying myself to sleep and waking up feeling even worse and then crying some more.
I dont fucking know what to do with myself.
Im not good at coping with heart breaks which is why I never wanted to fucking do this in the first place.
I feel like Im going fucking crazy.
And YES i know “life is tough and this is just one of many lessons ahead”
And YES i know “it’ll get better, time heals all”
and YES i know “hanging out with good friends will help forget about it all”
but I all I can do is think about what I did to deserve this, and how much I miss him already.
This is now. I have to deal with what Im feeling now, and it is really fucking terrible.
Once I’m committed to a person I’m fucking committed. I give in and care so much for the people I love.
And to just have my heart ripped out like that for no reason at all sucks. So. Much.
I’ve been through this exact situation before and I promised myself I would never let it happen again.
I should have kept that promise because I don’t know how to cope with this anymore.
I am so tired of having people shit on my face when I don’t deserve it one bit.